Sometimes...

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My Uterus and I really just need to have a talk.

I'm being cranky and moody and it isn't fair.

Someone tell me to quit it, k? Thanks.

I love my friends, I can't wait to live together... And I really miss my boyfriend :[

Night.

OH! The Job news... I will be starting at the Chesterfield Galaxy (a different theater location) On Friday. I'm really excited that this means things work out with our apartment... And Really sad I'm leaving my friends. I'll miss everyone.

It's Comforting...

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That I wrote you a long blog about reconciliation and working through things...Since then, Justin and I haven't had any fights. Times were hard for awhile, but not because he and I weren't doing ok, but because sometimes life is hard. And that's ok. Right now Life is terrible for him. But he and I are doing really well. And I'm thankful for the relationship God has blessed us with.

Occasionally I think about you, Blogger, and feel bad that I haven't updated... So here is my timeline... REAL fast :P

Graduation
Home
Work
Puppy
Justin
Work
Justin - Chemo
MOVING
and potentially moving jobs? I don't know.

I'll let you know what I find out tomorrow! Hopefully good news that will make this all easier :]

Good Night!

Pushing...

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is something I've come to learn I can't stand.

...It's a new lesson, it's an important lesson... Pushing me is the fastest way to make me run.

Night.

In the End...

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Tomorrow I graduate.

I'm terrified.
I'm excited.
I'm Done.

Most importantly, I'm broken and insecure and new.

I don't know if I can do this, but I'm going to try.
I even have a plan. It's a good one too.

Just you wait, I'm takin' over the world.

Seriously though, I'm hurting and torn and sleepy and lonely and ready... So I'm off to bed.

I love you :]

A Little About Me...

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It's not perfect, but it's pretty accurate...


My Personality
 
Neuroticism
63
Extraversion
72
Openness to Experience
61
Agreeableness
60
Conscientiousness
33
 
You do not feel nervous in social situations, and have a good impression of what others think of you, however you tend to lack energy and have difficult initiating activities. You get overwhelmed by too much noise and commotion and do not like thrill-seeking activities. You prefer the security and stability brought by conformity to tradition. You find helping other people genuinely rewarding and are generally willing to assist those who are in need. You find that doing things for others is a form of self-fulfillment rather than self-sacrifice, however you generally see others as selfish, devious, and sometimes potentially dangerous. Mostly you work towards achieving your best, although in some areas you are content just to get the job done.

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Super warm ugg boots for cozy toes


Guilt...

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Ruins one's enjoyment of an exciting moment in life.

I Graduate 3 weeks from Friday. THREE. That's awesome, right? Of course! And all of the graduating Art Majors have to put together a senior show in the art gallery. Also, very cool. Except... it's expensive.

No Seriously... EXPENSIVE. At least my parents are helping me out and paying for it... But I walked out of Kinko's yesterday majorly weighed down by guilt. I called my mom to tell her the bad news and was just so upset I told her not to get me anything more for Christmas. She did a great job of telling me not to be ridiculous and that it was ok, because by graduating early, I'm saving money. But still, I feel bad. I can't believe anyone could expect me to accept more gifts.

I should be excited about this show, about graduating, really I just feel bad.

I'm also stressed. Three major things left to get done this semester. I can do it, right? Right.

I'm going to go back to taking notes on a movie. Ciao!

Reconciliation...

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...granted to the girl on her knees, begging her God to show her the way.

Miscommunications and Misunderstandings... Still suck. But Reconciliation is a healing balm to the hurt of a misunderstanding.

There's a line of what's ok and what isn't. A line of appropriate joking and justified humor.

...Crossing that line can have bad ramifications. Ramifications that can include a boyfriend who is so upset by not taking the trust of your relationship seriously, that he genuinely struggles to decide whether or not to work through this screw up.

To all those who helped calm Justin down and show him the remorse I was feeling, and how badly I was willing to work to not mess up at this again... Thank You. You are some of the people I love most right now.

My mouth runs away from me. Often. And this is something that I need to control.

Ephesians 4:29 -Let no foul or polluting language, nor evil word nor unwholesome or worthless talk [ever] come out of your mouth, but only such [speech] as is good and beneficial to the spiritual progress of others, as is fitting to the need and the occasion, that it may be a blessing and give grace (God's favor) to those who hear it.

Do you see that? No Worthless talk. There needs to be purpose behind everything that I say. In order for that to be true, there needs to be thought behind everything that I say. Even more than there needing to be a purpose, there needs to be edification. How can I hope to build a strong relationship with anyone, let alone my boyfriend, if I'm not choosing to edify those I love? My words cannot be tearing down those people, but instead strengthening my relationships.

So, as for this reconciliation. Nothing comes easy and relationships have problems that need to be worked through. So of course it may take a little time to heal and get back to normal, but that we're trying is the important thing.

Anyway, I have packing to get done if I plan to work out today before going to Springfield. Twilight premieres tonight!!! I'm so freaking excited, you don't even know. I'm 21 and stoked about this movie, if anyone has issues with that, too bad. I'm embracing the part of myself that just wants to enjoy being carefree and entertained.

I'll probably come rave or rant about it tomorrow... but yeah. Bye!